Maybe you’re going home to a family that still prays before dinner.

Maybe you’re not going home at all, and that has its own ache.

Either way, you don’t have to figure out this season alone.

We walk toward the longest night together, making room for grief, for what’s in the dark, and for the light that comes back on its own. And then, we walk out of the darkness as the light returns and set the stage for the new year with a group of new friends who know what it’s like to do the work of undoing and recreating all on your own. 

This time, you’ve got good company.

We start November 24th

Your mind left the church a while ago, but maybe your body didn’t quite get the memo.

Every year, the holidays pull you back in. The family table. The music in every store. The prayer before dinner, when everyone bows their head but you keep your eyes open and make faces at your nephew.

Under all of it, there’s grief. For the faith you lost, the family that doesn’t quite get you anymore (or maybe never did), and the version of you who believed it all. Nobody at that table makes room for the you who exists today.

This circle does.

Grief and radiance, both at once

Most holiday advice tells you to push through, stay positive, or just white knuckle survive it. 

That’s not what we’re doing here.

The solstice teaches something the church never did:

the dark is not a punishment, and the light doesn’t come back because you earned it.

No savior is coming (no savior is even required). The sun returns in its own time, without any effort from you. And the darkness has its work to do too.

So we don’t skip the hard part.

We walk into the dark on purpose, together, and we let it be what it is.

Then, on the longest night, we walk back toward the light.

The shape of the season

Walking toward the longest night · Nov 24 to Dec 21

This is the descent. We move through the body from the ground up, meeting what’s in the dark: what you were taught to fear, hide, or swallow to keep the peace. Nothing gets forced into the light before it’s ready.

The longest night · Dec 21

On the solstice, we hold a grief ritual. Nothing gets fixed. Everything gets honored. You set yourself free and allow yourself to feel all the things you are meant to feel. And we still celebrate as the grief clears the path back to our inherent radiance.

Welcoming back the light · Dec 22 to Jan 6

As the days start to lengthen, we turn toward ourselves the same way the sun turns back. This is where self-love lives: not as a performance, but as a homecoming.

What’s included

Five live calls on Zoom, 5 pm Pacific (all recorded)

• Tue Nov 24 · Root: your autonomy.

  Grounding before Thanksgiving. Belonging in your body when you don’t belong at the table anymore.

• Tue Dec 8 · Sacral: your pleasure and desire.

  Joy, play, and creating traditions that actually feel like yours.

• Tue Dec 15 · Solar Plexus: your agency.

• Boundaries, saying no, and holding your own power around family.

• Mon Dec 21 · Solstice Heart: your self-love and shadow integration.

  A grief ritual for the longest night, and welcoming back the light.

The Twelve Nights · Dec 25 to Jan 5.

One tarot card a night, one for each month of the new year, with a short voice note from me. You’ll start the year with a map you chart for yourself with the cards we share as a community.

Twelfth Night closing ritual · Tue Jan 5.

We seal the season and look at the year ahead through our cards and experiences. Together, we welcome back radiance and resonance.

A private Telegram circle

with weekly prompts for walking toward the longest night, embodiment and energetic practices for hard family moments, and voice notes from me between calls. Not to mention the community we’ll build together in our little Telegram nook.

This is for you if

• You’ve done the deconstruction work, and your head knows what it believes now (or at least what it doesn’t believe anymore)

• Your body still clenches, braces, or goes numb around the holidays

• You’re carrying grief that nobody around you seems to make room for

• You’re witchy or witch-curious and hungry for rituals that belong to you

• You’re ready to focus on who you’re becoming, not relive what happened

• If you have a therapist, keep them. This circle works alongside therapy, not instead of it.

How I hold this space

I follow the LeVar Burton rule in all my spiritual work: “You don’t have to take my word for it.”

I won’t hand you a new doctrine or tell you what to believe. I’ll offer practices, rituals, and questions, and your body gets the final say. YOU are the maker of your own meaning. I am here to support you as you play with this magickal part of being human. This is not a new church. It’s a circle of people finding their own light.

About Sarai

I’m Sarai Johnson, a witch, somatic sexologist, and intimacy coach. I left the evangelical church and spent years learning to live in my body instead of bracing against it. I hold certifications in sexology and relationship coaching through the Sexual Health Alliance, and I’m a Reiki Master and yoga teacher. I’ve worked with Danielle Dulsky in her witch apprenticeship programs since 2018. Most importantly, I know what it takes to reclaim my entire human self: body, mind, and soul, and to determine the life I’m here to live.

I know what it’s like to sit at a holiday table as someone your family doesn’t fully recognize anymore. I also know there’s a way through that doesn’t require you to shrink or hide.